She said YES!

I was all nerves in the Petronas Dewan Philharmonik hall. I anxiously checked my breast pocket every 4 or 5 minutes. The “package” was inconspicously and safely tucked in the breast pocket of my newly tailored coat.

The baroque music was skillfully rendered by the critically acclaimed English Concert orchestra but Handel’s timeless classic was the furthest away from my mind at that point in time. My brain then was already processing at its full capacity as I played the scenario over and over again in my head.

Suddenly, the Handel piece that was drifting in and out of my head absent-mindedly came to an end. To polite but virgourous applause, the ensemble bowed and left the stage. It was the intermission. My heart started to pound loudly as the applause died and the lights came up. I asked Cheryl to see if she wanted to go out to stretch out her legs.

The moment was near and I desperately held on to my nerves. I walked her to the toilet and saw her enter. My heart was rattling in my chest furiously now. I heard the rushing of blood in my temples as they gushed from my heart to my head, pulsating, marking down the seconds before Cheryl reappeared again.

I told her that I wanted to go back into the hall to wait seeing that the foyer now was full of people. She agreed and we walked back to the entrance of the concert hall, hand-in-hand. Along the way, I have to consciously ensure that she did not lean too close to me to feel the concealed “package” that I was carrying.

When we got back to our seats, sweat was beginning to form on my forehead. Ignoring my anxieties, I recounted to her how long we had been with each other. I told her that she was the best thing that had ever happened in my life. I recalled for her the fun-filled times that we had spent going for holidays, waste hours talking about everything and nothing, selflessly sharing our lives while enjoying each other’s diverse hobbies. I shared with her about how my life had become more meaningful because of her and how she had made me see what true love really meant.

And as I said this, I knelt down along the aisle of the seat, quickly reached into my pocket and slowly pulled out a box that contained a diamond ring.

I asked her in a soft voice if she wanted to share the rest of her life with me.

….and she said “yes”.

And as the warm happy tears of joy rolled down our cheeks, I gently slipped the ring into the fourth finger of her left hand.

It was the happiest day of my life.

 

Civilization 4

I was tired yesterday and wanted to rejuvenate when I did the mistake of installing Civilization 4 on my notebook. The game totally sucked away my waking hours like a succubus on heat.

What’s different about the game when compared to the previous version is that it has a new concept called “Religion”. Civs can now start a religion and spread them beyond your boundaries. Civs with same religion tends to be more amiable to each other but be careful of overzealous neighbours who will preach to you about your sinful ways.

Another cool thing is that one can run for Secretary General of the UN and set resolutions to be voted on. This allows one to push through resolutions like Nuclear Non-Proliferation (after one has build a HUGE stockpile, hehehe…).

The game that I played last night was relatively a short one (2 hours 59 minutes) when compared to a typical Civ 3 game (which typically takes 4-6 hours). Overall, I was friendly to my neighbours (not a single battle was waged) but the ending was quite tedious as it was a race to space between my Civ and another Civ.

In the end, I proved myself to be the better megalomaniac than the computer.

Updates, updates, updates

I’ve been silent all these weeks not because I am lazy (okay, maybe a little) but because I’ve joined a new company and suddenly, my life has been injected back into the fast track.

I’m now working in the Segment Marketing team of a telecommunications company and I’ve been extremely busy in the past couple of months. Okay, some of you may be thinking that this is a downgrade but well, life goes on I guess.

The decision to work for a company didn’t come easily. I’ve been running my own one-man show consultancy and was quite comfortable with the relatively abundant quality time that I get. So what made me go back to work for someone?

The reason is….I needed the security of a 9-to-5 job. Yes, Dorothy, we are not in Kansas anymore.

Ever since I met Cheryl, I had this unexplained desire to provide the best for her and I couldn’t have anything as unstable as a freelance career, regardless of how many hours I get to spend watching “The West Wing” or playing “Gran Turismo 4” or read Salman Rushdie or tweak with audiophile system or upgrade my system to the latest version of Mac OS X.

In that respect, I surprised even myself in the way how my mind works. Perhaps this is what happens when one finds the right one to settle down with 🙂

So anyway, I was just writing about my job and it turned out to be very interesting. One thing that holds true in the mobile telecommunications company in Malaysia is the fact that it is hyper-competitive and one always have to be on one’s toes in order to get ahead of the other.

Being in marketing gave me the opportunity to witness first hand how certain decisions are made and the reasons behind such decisions. It gave me the perspective that I once lacked when commenting on the telecommunication industry. And so far, the ride has been a very rewarding one indeed.

Star Wars: Episode III: Revenge of the Sith

With Star Wars: Episode III: Revenge of the Sith, the Star Wars saga comes full circle back to the very beginning.

There has been a lot of buzz recently about how good this movie is. I’ve partially read some early reviews, keyword being partially because these early reviews are mainly from the Internet and contained mainly spoilers. While I was skimming through the reviews, what I read regarding the acting, action and story were very encouraging. This made me very excited about the movie. However, the empty hollow feeling that I got after watching the over-hyped but underperformed Phantom Menace was still fresh in my memory. Keeping this mind, I walked into the cinema feeling hopeful but cautious.

After 2 hours and 20 minutes, my initial feelings of doubts about the new Star Wars movie were unfounded.

Revenge of the Sith is very good by the prequels’ standards- which is not to say a lot because quite frankly apart from being technical achievements, the prequels are quite bad. It is also good when compared to the original trilogy, especially when compared to the Jar-jaresque Return of the Jedi.

The story of Sith picks up 3 years after the end of the previous movie, Attack of the Clones. The movie opens with Anakin Skywalker and Obi-wan Kenobi, zipping above and under Republican ships on orbit over Coruscant, on their way to rescue Chancellor Palatine who had been kidnapped by a Separatist strike force. The first 20 minutes of the film shows off the valiant and resourceful duo as they sliced and diced their way through a fierce but visually brilliant space battle. The opening action climaxed when Anakin is faced with a choice to either slay Dooku or to bring him to justice. Palpatine prompts Anakin to do the former and it is the first step down the slippery slope into the dark side for the young Jedi. Of course, for those who do not know yet- Palpatine is Darth Sidious (Darth who? The guy behind the robe in the Phantom Menace who gave orders to the oriental accented Neimodians).

But the fight is not over yet. They meet the new villain for this movie, a prototype man-machine hybrid by the name of General Grievous. The general was once a living being who has been supplemented with robotic limbs and exo-skeletal shielding. The machine parts give him strength, agility and speed and it is implied that he is a slayer of Jedi. A fight ensues and just when the odds are tipped against Grievous, he smashes the window of the ship and makes his escape, leaving Anakin, Obi-wan, Palpatine and R2-D2 to land what is left of a ship down on the narrow streets of Coruscant.

Withouth a doubt, this is has got to be one of the best and action packed opening of any movie. The action is exciting and the fantastic visual effects serve the story very well by making what seemed to be improbable to be real.

The comradeship and chemistry between Anakin and Obi-wan is so much more better this time. Unlike the young Padawan in Attack of the Clones, Anakin has matured to become a Jedi Knight, no longer the student of Obi-wan but a compatriot. Indeed, this is also reflected in later scenes where Anakin addresses Obi-wan by his name rather than “master??? and how Obi-wan sings praises of young Anakin. In fact, Anakin takes Obi-wan as the father that he never had and Obi-wan regards Anakin as a dear friend and warrior.

Back in Coruscant, Anakin reunites with Padmé Amidala and she tells him that she is pregnant. Of course, this poses a little problem for our star-crossed lovers. Though secretly married, he is Jedi and she is a senator, news of their relationship would change them for the worse. Anakin could be expelled from the Jedi order and Padmé could be asked to step down. But luckily for them, they do not have to find out what could happen to them because the end for everyone is coming.

After that news, Anakin begins to have premonitions of Padmé dying during childbirth. These premonitions are similar to the kind that he had 3 years ago about his mother. He feels then that he had let his mother down in Tatooine and he is not about to lose Padmé. He is obsessed with finding ways to prevent the death of another love one. And it is with this obsession that Anakin accelerates his fall to the Dark Side of the Force.

Ever since the freed slave boy came to Coruscant, Palpatine has been keeping a watch on Anakin. The Sith Lord has been plotting behind the scenes to create a war so that he can publicly manipulate the bureaucracy of the republic and seize power. He has mentoring, advising and caring for Anakin so that one day, when the time is right, he can turn Anakin to the dark side of the force. And with the increasing strength that Anakin gained over the past 3 years, the time is almost at an end. Unbeknownst to Anakin of Palpatine’s true identity, Palpatine tells Anakin that only with the power of the Dark Side of the Force can one stop death and achieve immortality for oneself or for loved ones. Anakin, of course, is more than curious.

The Jedi, however, are increasingly worried over Palpatine’s ascension as he seizes more civil liberties and gives himself more power. They see Palpatine as a crafty politician who may not be what he seems as he had managed to stayed as Chancellor for so long. They suspect that Palpatine’s intention may not be noble after all and that all he is really after is power and more power. But stretched thin as they are, they have no choice but to lead Republican clone armies in their desperate attempts to assist planets from being overtaken by the Separatists. And now, news is that Kashyyk, the homeworld of the wookies are in trouble. Yoda volunteers for this mission while Obi-Wan investigates the whereabouts of General Grievous. Anakin, meanwhile is secretly given the role of spying on Palpatine by the Jedi Council, a role that he reluctantly agrees to do.

From this point on the movie gets really, really dark.

His concern about Padmé’s destiny, being caught in between the Jedis and Palpatine, Anakin is torn between the interests of the 3 polar opposites. And the difficult choices that he has to make will not only influence him and the people around him but also the fate of the galaxy.

Moving the story along, Anakin chooses the Dark Side of the Force in order to save Padmé and the termination of the Jedi begins. In one of the more moving scenes in any Star Wars movies, Palpatine gives Order 66, a galactic wide alert to all clone troopers to kill all Jedi in sight. Here, the movie cuts between scenes of Jedis being killed unsuspectingly by their own clone armies in different planet and one is reminded of a similar scene at the end of the Godfather when Michael Corleone gave the order to destroy all of his enemies.

Even the younglings shown in Attack of the Clones were not spared as Anakin made it his own mission to destroy them and the Jedi temple itself.

In the midst of this Yoda and Obi-wan survived Order 66 and team up with Senator Bail Organa to save whatever that they can. One of the first thing that they must do is to return to Coruscant and to disable a trap asking all Jedis to return to Coruscant. Meanwhile, Palpatine turns the situation to his advantage by saying the Jedis committed treason and in order to provide security for the citizens of the Republic, he is remaking it into an Imperial government with him as the first emperor.

Yoda and Obi-wan decides to split up to take on the pair of Siths. Yoda confronts Emperor Palpatine while Obi-wan tricks Padmé into bringing him to meet Anakin in the volcanic planet of Mustafar. The flight scene between Yoda and the Emperor plays out on the floor of the Galactic Senate and for once, the audience can see how frail and helpless Yoda is against the more powerful Emperor. Yoda is overpowered and he escapes.

Meanwhile, Anakin force chokes Padmé, thinking that she is responsible for bringing Obi-wan to kill him. After dropping her down on the floor, former student and master fight. The duel between the former student-master and later partner pair leaves Anakin broken and battered.

The final few moments of this movie ties all of the loose ends of the prequels to the original trilogy. Anakin, though now limbless and horribly scarred, is rebuilt as the half-man, half-machine heavy breathing Darth Vader. Padmé gives birth to twins, Luke and Leia and dies of as a result of heartbreak. Yoda and Obi-wan go into hiding until a suitable moment presents itself again to take on the Sith master and apprentice.

With the element of suspense gone, George Lucas’ job was all the more difficult. Coming from two critically disappointing prequels, fan expectations are low but almost every fan (including me) wanted to see the saga ends (or how the saga began, depending on how you see it) on a high note. We’ve been waiting 18 years to see who Darth Vader was before the helmet and why did he turn to the Dark Side of the Force in the first place.

The cleverness of Revenge of the Sith is not in it’s ending but in the human drama that occurs in the middle of the movie. It chronicles the choices that Anakin has and the path that he chooses at the end of the day. Given the same choices, I wonder if anyone would have so differently.

In fact after watching this movie, our perception of Darth Vader changes substantially. Before this, the only humane moment of Darth Vader came at the end of Return of the Jedi when he picked up an anorexic Emperor and threw him down a shaft to save his son, Luke. With Revenge of the Sith, we now understand that Anakin is really the hero of the whole Star Wars saga. It chronicles how a slave boy was rescued, trained, rose to fame, fell in love, made some bad choices and repented at the very last moments of his life.

In fact, through the eyes of Anakin, he really believed that he is doing nothing wrong. By siding with Palpatine, he chose to believe that the Jedi and Sith are 2 sides of the same thing and they could not possibly exist peacefully side by side. He chose to believe that power is absolute and strength came from the display of such power. He chose to believe that if one is not with him, then one is his enemy. But deep down, Anakin has been trained to see things very differently. He has been taught to be selfless and giving. This duality in Anakin played up in the very first scene with Darth Vader. After taking his first few infamous breaths through the artificial respirator, Darth Vader/Anakin asked about the whereabouts of Padmé.

The Jedis are far from being faultless by bringing about their own destruction. By putting Anakin, by far their most powerful Jedi, into a situation where he has to choose, they are pushing him towards Palapatine. The interfering of the politically naïve Jedis into galactic politics made them pawns in Palpatine’s ascension to the imperial throne.

Looney limericks

Someone recently unlocked,
A part of my brain that was blocked.
It took one sms,
To sort out the mess
Now I’m rhyming round the clock!

I used to do a lot of this in school,
Where writing in rhyme was so cool.
I thought of the lines,
And later refined,
Into a bag of handy rhyme tools.

My earlier works were quite lame,
When read they cause quite a shame.
But I struggled ahead,
And knocked everyone dead,
But they never brought me my fame.

And alas it was soon forgotten,
’till that part of my brain’s gone rotten,
but what happened to me,
not since 1993,
Have I been rhyming so often!

This time it began innocently enough,
My mind formed rhymes that were rough.
I started to think,
And the words then linked,
I’m rhyming and to stop it’ll be tough!

I know that I need to have beats,
Without them my poem’s incomplete,
But give me a break,
It is kinda late,
I promise next time they’ll pack heat.

So I leave you all with a bang,
And thank a girl from Penang,
who sent me a rhyme,
at an ungodly time,
And on whose sweet graces I tenderly hang.

The flu

First it was the rib juggling cough. Then comes the sore throat. Yesterday was the full blown flu, complete with running nose, uncontrollable sneezes and high fever. Call me a masochist but I really enjoy having fever dreams.

But apart from Dali-esque melting objects and landscape, the most surreal fever dream that I ever had was one that started out quite serene:-

It was a starless sky and the full moon was high above the sky. I had a telescope and I was peering into the small peep hole. I saw the wonderfully scarred lunar terrain. Suddenly, I spotted something shiny. I zoomed in and I notice that it was a mirror. Perplexed, I increased the zoom and I saw the blue sphere that was the earth, reflected from the mirror. I looked further and I saw the continents. I zoomed in further and further until I can make out the shape of the Malaysian peninsular. I zoomed further and further until I can see my house and myself being looking up (or down) at myself.

In a way, I find it quite poetic. It seems to tell me that as I search further externally for answers, the answer had always been with me. It reminds me of a Shaker song that I’ve come to know and love:-

Simple Gifts (Joseph Brackett, 1848)

‘Tis the gift to be simple,
’tis the gift to be free.
‘Tis the gift to come down
where we ought to be.
And when we find ourselves
in the place just right,
Twill be in the valley
of love and delight.

When true simplicity is gained,
To bow and to bend
we shall not be ashamed.
To turn, turn
will be our delight,
‘Till by turning, turning
we come round right.